Last day of the year.
Here we go again, huh? New resolutions that never make it past the end of January, plans and projects we make because we don't want to waste the next 365 days, we don't want to look back and realize nothing changes year after year, and year after year it gets scarier because we're getting older and the years seem to be going by faster.
I know that feeling because I've felt it almost every New Year's for the last decade. But not this year. It's funny how we only seem to get perspective at the end of the year and get lost in our routine again within weeks. Yeah, we quit smoking and join the gym and we really think this time it's going to stick but it doesn't. I think it's because we make the wrong choices. We can't fix our lives by quitting smoking but we might be able to quit smoking if we fix our lives first. Last year I quit smoking for about a week. I think I also wanted to buy a bike and start cycling but somehow never got around to it. But I also said I wanted to "Find myself" --whatever that means. And in the last few months I have written numerous times about how my life was turned upside down just by "doing" things, every day, in stead of just talking about them. And I'm not the only one. I look at friends and see what they've accomplished this year, and I'm proud of them too. Friends who quit their perfectly comfortable well paid jobs to follow their dreams. Putting two season of a TV show on air within 6 months. Opening a bar. Publishing a book. Moving accross the world to start a new life. I see others around me, taking chances every day to do something different with their lives and it's inspiring. Even when it's just something like starting a blog like my friends Blushing and The Football Supernova. Sometimes small is big. Huge even.
I have had the most satsifying year of my life and it just makes me want to do more. It's not about quitting smoking, although we should... It's the feeling of doing something every day that you can be proud of. I'm proud of so many things right now I would sound very pretentious if I were to list them all! But I have never felt better. Right this moment, I'm sitting in my hotel room in Phuket, Thailand, and I can barely believe I am here. In the last few days I have seen more beauty than I have in a lifetime. Everything here reminds me of everything I have learnt this year, and how much more I want to learn. Recently I was once again painfully reminded at how short life is and how easily we can all slip out of this world. So I'm damn well going to make my time count.
I look at the breathtaking views of the beaches of Thailand and I take it all in. And then I snap a picture because that's the only thing we can keep, right? You're there one moment and then you're not. So I snap away at the beach and the sunset and my friends on motorcycles around Phuket. Weekends of shoots, we snap. Gala dinner raising hundreds of thousands of dollars for children, we snap. My cousin who was completely paralyzed from neck to toe last year, dancing the foxtrot like a beaty queen -we snap. My aunt's last birthday with her husband. My brother turning 18. Snap, snap, snap. The year went by so fast we barely had time to blink. Yet so much has changed we don't live in the same world anymore. The world I'm in right now has blue skies and turquoise water and most of my closest friends. I can't think of a better way to wrap up this year and start the new.
Make it count.
Here we go again, huh? New resolutions that never make it past the end of January, plans and projects we make because we don't want to waste the next 365 days, we don't want to look back and realize nothing changes year after year, and year after year it gets scarier because we're getting older and the years seem to be going by faster.
I know that feeling because I've felt it almost every New Year's for the last decade. But not this year. It's funny how we only seem to get perspective at the end of the year and get lost in our routine again within weeks. Yeah, we quit smoking and join the gym and we really think this time it's going to stick but it doesn't. I think it's because we make the wrong choices. We can't fix our lives by quitting smoking but we might be able to quit smoking if we fix our lives first. Last year I quit smoking for about a week. I think I also wanted to buy a bike and start cycling but somehow never got around to it. But I also said I wanted to "Find myself" --whatever that means. And in the last few months I have written numerous times about how my life was turned upside down just by "doing" things, every day, in stead of just talking about them. And I'm not the only one. I look at friends and see what they've accomplished this year, and I'm proud of them too. Friends who quit their perfectly comfortable well paid jobs to follow their dreams. Putting two season of a TV show on air within 6 months. Opening a bar. Publishing a book. Moving accross the world to start a new life. I see others around me, taking chances every day to do something different with their lives and it's inspiring. Even when it's just something like starting a blog like my friends Blushing and The Football Supernova. Sometimes small is big. Huge even.
I have had the most satsifying year of my life and it just makes me want to do more. It's not about quitting smoking, although we should... It's the feeling of doing something every day that you can be proud of. I'm proud of so many things right now I would sound very pretentious if I were to list them all! But I have never felt better. Right this moment, I'm sitting in my hotel room in Phuket, Thailand, and I can barely believe I am here. In the last few days I have seen more beauty than I have in a lifetime. Everything here reminds me of everything I have learnt this year, and how much more I want to learn. Recently I was once again painfully reminded at how short life is and how easily we can all slip out of this world. So I'm damn well going to make my time count.
I look at the breathtaking views of the beaches of Thailand and I take it all in. And then I snap a picture because that's the only thing we can keep, right? You're there one moment and then you're not. So I snap away at the beach and the sunset and my friends on motorcycles around Phuket. Weekends of shoots, we snap. Gala dinner raising hundreds of thousands of dollars for children, we snap. My cousin who was completely paralyzed from neck to toe last year, dancing the foxtrot like a beaty queen -we snap. My aunt's last birthday with her husband. My brother turning 18. Snap, snap, snap. The year went by so fast we barely had time to blink. Yet so much has changed we don't live in the same world anymore. The world I'm in right now has blue skies and turquoise water and most of my closest friends. I can't think of a better way to wrap up this year and start the new.
Make it count.
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